A meme I made after the conversation my mom and I just had. Mom was trying to be encouraging but it sort of fizzled out. I'm out of shape and have a few health conditions. So, I was a bit perturbed that the man missing a leg and smoking at the race start line beat me! Oh well, I guess somebody has to be around to make people look good! Props to him for showing that you don't have to be typical to be a winner.

Training to Jump Through Fire?!

I've been training for my New Years goal for three weeks already but I thought maybe I should inform you all on what the plans are! So, instead of the traditional weight loss goals most people have, I decided this is the year I get strong. I can't focus on losing weight, counting calories or anything like that because it could trigger some bad eating disorder habits again. I also have a hard time losing weight and since that has such a negative aspect for me I'm going for a different type of goal.

 I've always wanted to run the warrior dash! The warrior dash is a really tough muddy obstacle course 5k race. I can complete a 5k even if I'm slow so all I need to do is work on my strength! The doctor wants me to do a low-carb diet so I've started that and I guess we will see together what this combination does to my body! Since I'm releasing my starting video so late you'll get to see the one-month updates really soon! How exciting! Do you think anything has changed? 

Also, let me know how often you want updates and if you want to see any footage of me exercising? I don't want to be boring but I did notice my 12k challenge was popular! 

Also, side note it would be really helpful if you could share or like this video. I've noticed several people have unsubscribed from my channel and it has me feeling a bit bummed cause I work really hard putting these videos together! :D 

Why Did I Start Running?

I was never athletic because I believed that I couldn't be. Which was wrong.

I've gotten older and realized I am an athletic person and I had missed out on so many opportunities as a girl only because people told me I was a girl, I wasn't strong enough, I was not made for it, I was born clumsy.

Sometimes my own fears would get in the way. The only one who ever encouraged me for the long term was my little brother.

Then he became injured and I happened to see a virtual 5k for brain injury on my advertisement page on FB. That was about a year or so ago.

Anyway, I signed up against my better judgment. I ended up at the track... dropped off by my hubby who thought I was crazy. So, there I was alone... fighting with my own demons walking for my brother when my heart broke thinking... he can't do this sort of thing anymore. What a blessing I have in my own body. I tried running for the first time and I was shocked that I couldn't even run a full minute. Later I was in so much pain I had to ice bath even though I didn't even run a lot.

I thought that I was done but like a light switch... I desired to run more. I bought an entire running outfit and started to train. I could not do the c25k program yet so I worked on my goal being able to run a minute and then more and more until I was running!

I joined more races and people saw how happy I was. Then my husband joined me and since the thing I've been working on my own personal running goals. When I'm sick because of PCOS or Hashimoto's and complications that go with those it helps me to know that I can be strong on the race track. I run with six different awareness ribbons. Some for myself and some for my family.

(Diary) W1D1 Bridge To 10k FAIL :(

So, I've had a few days off from my last race a 5k. I've completed c25k twice now but I'm slow. So, I thought I'd do this program. Before the 5k I injured my foot/ankle area. It was one of those injuries where I could not uncurl my toes my foot when a little numb and it hurt to walk on. It cleared up mostly for the race and I got through without much issue.(The race was hilly though not something I trained for very well) I've rested from that and just tried to do a slow easy run on the treadmill. 8 mins in though that foot/ankle started to hurt so I quit before much more pain. It's weird though... the pain is above the ankle and up the side of the shin. It does not feel like the shin splints I had when I started running a year ago.

I can't go to the sports clinic until next week. So, I'm depressed about not being able to run. I'm worried this is a serious injury. I need to find another exercise fast because I don't want to backslide on all my training :(

I have another 5k on the 20th. Thankfully, that one is very casual and not competitive but I'm still mad about it.

Adding into this terrible no good day; Gunter (my border collie) snatched my phone and threw it into his water bowl. I'm too darn poor to replace it so fingers crossed it's OK. My medication to treat my Atypical endometrial hyperplasia stopped yesterday and I've been feeling terrible with cramps today. My mood swings are all over the place and I'm crying at everything for no reason. Such as the SIMS 4 sale ... I've been desperate to get more expansion packs. However every single time they have a sale it is ALWAYS between paydays. I can never get them. :(

Update: I'm crying right now. Because my beautiful husband just called and told me to buy the SIMS pack that I wanted. He just used his haircut money to give me a gift.