Autistic Girl's First Impressions l Weighted Blanket Unboxing!

 I'll post the link to find this really cheap blanket here: Pine And River it was around 30.00 total for me because I have prime. Though I think this would qualify for Amazon's free shipment without prime. Important to note that I am not affiliated with Pine And River, I don't make any money if you click the link. It's not attached to anything. I'm just trying to spread info about this affordable blanket. If you want to help a girl out please subscribe to my channel! It would be even better if you could watch the video with ads on! I'm using any money I make from my youtube to buy a nicer camera or phone for filming. Thank you for any and all support! :D

Autistic Giving Herself A Home Haircut!

Let's sneak around in the middle of the night (again) and do stuff! I'm wide awake. So, if you didn't know... I'm autistic and that makes for some interesting situations sometimes. Like this moment. I was having some serious anxiety about seeing the hairdressers because I didn't want to talk to them. So, chopped at my own hair.

Hopefully, it didn't come out so badly but I'm not sure I could make the hair cut any worse at this point. Everyone wants me to grow my hair out again and I sorta want to as well but right now I've been training for the mud run and the other 5k I wanted to do later this year. It means I get gross and sweaty every single day and having super long hair just isn't practical! Hashimoto's can make my hair very brittle and breakable and if you get your hair wet in this state it means you'll lose a lot of hair :( so to avoid that I've got this short bob. 

Oh :( I broke my glasses btw that's why I'm wearing these old frames. Yes, for the people who didn't know I can talk. I am verbal but I have selective mutism which means sometimes I shut down and can't talk to people. Unfortunately, at this time my selective muteness as really focused on my Youtube videos. I have a hard time talking on here as it gives me so much anxiety. I am working on it. Maybe one day I'll have full talkie videos but for now, I just create these. You might be able to hear me sing or whisper on snapchat or tiktok if you are interested! 

If you want to know more about my autism

 Answering common Q&A

Autistic For Attention?

It took me over two years to have myself diagnosed with Autism. I went to the top professionals in my area that specialize in just Autism. I went through tests and interviews. One test was a six-hour long psych test. I was so upset and stressed by it that I punched a dent into the side of our truck and plucked one of my keychain pom-poms bald.

The day I was finally diagnosed with Autism; I cried for joy. Mostly because it finally validated all the hardships I went through. I thought I would tell everyone I knew because to me being diagnosed was a wonderful thing! I had finally had an explanation for everything.

Then I started running into people who decided for themselves that I did not have "real" autism. They would compare to people that they knew that had "real autism" and would explain to me that even though I went through two years of diagnosis with a proper professional that I do not have real autism.

In those moments they would be stripping me down to my core and telling me that whatever I was struggling with was not real. That all those times I acted differently meant that I was just doing it for attention. In fact, one person told me to my face that I was saying that I was Autistic just for attention.

Most of the time I never reply to the people that say those things. I don't know what to say really. I just know that whenever someone says that I'm faking something like autism for attention; they obviously don't know me at all. That's fine if it's a stranger but it can be very hurtful realizing that some of your close friends and family don't know you. That they would go out of there way to hurt me just because they don't understand what autism is.

In the end, I've concluded that some of these people are ignorant but some are choosing to stay ignorant. It does not make it hurt any less but at least I can acknowledge that the issue lies with them and not me and try and move on.



(Sorry, no editor on this post guys. It's just straight from my heart)