Why do I want a Reborn Baby Doll?

Feeding a reborn doll! Taken by Dollie Moon Bump

When you hear doll collector what do you think of? Do images of grandmother's with rooms full of porcelain dolls fill your head? I think it's easy to want to box up and define someone this way. Most people see dolls as creepy and many people dismiss how much a simple doll could help heal a soul. 

I've been a doll collector all my life and I have heard endless amounts of comments. Sometimes they are not directed at me but at the inanimate objects, I collect. Occasionally, the disgust is actually directed at me. 

Once I commented on a Shane Dawson video expressing my want for a reborn baby like his. A few people chimed in to remind me how pathetic I am. A few people suggested that I go to counseling. 

As an infertile woman who desperately wants a child, these comments were hurtful. I'm well aware that a doll cannot replace a child but just the idea of having a small object to hold and love floods my heart with joy. 

Close up of Reborn Doll Taken by m.shattock

I don't have a reborn yet as they are very expensive. I have shopped and contacting different nurseries to build my "designer baby" as it were. Along the way, I have met some wonderful women. Each one of us has different reasons for this hobby but all of us seem to speak some sort of unspoken language and we vibrate with understanding. 

These dolls are our common ground and we comfort each other for whatever the reason. We share each other's joys as well and we bond with our dolls and others. We have all found an island of peace in a world of storms. 

I don't think wanting to collect reborns makes me 'broken' actually I think it's the opposite. It makes me feel whole. If a simple doll can do that... then why should I worry about the people who seek to tear away my happiness? 

I think it goes without saying that my reasons for wanting a realistic baby doll are obvious. I have a whole in my heart where I am missing a living child. I'm not ashamed of this feeling and I think it's totally normal. It's other people who try to make me and my feelings into something that I am not. 

Everyone wants to explain away things in a perfect little package. So, while this is MY reason for collecting these dolls please keep in mind this is not everyone's reason for collecting. Please keep that in mind if you ever encounter a person who collects these types of babies.

Star Labs Front Desk Sounds l The Flash CW l AMSR l Study Aid l Sleep Ai...

It has been a while since I have made a good soundscape video. Soundscapes are stories that I tell using sounds. I like to make it so you can imagine yourself at the place and be hearing all the noise. It's perfect for sleep and study! I really love these things and I used to make them just for me but occasionally people seem to like the ones I make so I try and share. This one is based on The Flash CW tv show's S.T.A.R. Labs where team Flash works to defeat evil metas.

Can Gunter solve this Level 2 Puzzle?!

This is a Trixie pet brand puzzle for Gunter. It's supposed to help him be less bored. I got the idea to try these after Gunter has shown me that he's not a fan of running, hiking or fetching. So... I thought maybe he likes games! 

I Don't Go To Church On Mother's Day

Mother's day is hard for a lot of people and that's men and women alike. I post a post like this every year not to be a downer but to try and bring awareness to the struggles that come from a day that's a bit insensitive to the pain that so many people feel on this day. The massive marketing and humblebragging that goes on social media can be so heartbreaking to some.

I want you to be aware so that you can comfort those are in hurting or to bring you validation about your situation. To remind you that you are not alone.

Give flowers, chocolates, books, gifts, cards, hugs, love or even just a simple nod and message on FB to those who have lost, never had or are broken. They need it and so do you. Reaching out to connect with our fellow humans is much better than bragging. I'm not saying don't be proud or thankful for what you have but just be understanding! Many of us are avoiding church, outings, and activities to not have to hear a cheerful "Happy Mother's Day".

My heart and love are going to be with all of you struggling with this day and I hope your heart will also be with me.

Infertility
Parent Loss
Child Loss
Single Mother's
Strained and Broken relationships
Those wanting to build families but are single
And many many more.

Massive Birthday Haul! l No Talking l No Music l Quick l So much stuff!